Yesterday, I started my film editing project for my company from about 1:30pm(right after coming back from office and having lunch) until more than 11:30pm (I have every Saturday afternoon off). I was fond of the job and so concentrating on it that I forgot having dinner on time. Until my stomach rang its bell and asked me to full it immediately, its the time I felt blur in my eyes and some stars in my sight. I got a great headache and couldn't stand it.
Then I had to relax some time for my own health: eating dinner and having a bath...
After trying to make use of my remaining energy of that day, I fell into a tired and deep sleep... suddenly woke up at early morning, about 4:00am, I couldn't go back to sleep any more .. That was so abnormal because I always fall to sleep very easily ... until about 6 o'clock or more.. (I guess that)...
... I found me going to be dead soon so I told my sister that bad news. Then, if I remember clearly, I died right after telling her. After being dead, I could still feel the taste of the death and see it came so simply and peacefully.. I saw myself lying in a bed and there was a slight cloth like a towel or a thin and short blanket covering me at that time. I came next to myself and gently covered my own .. to feel I was getting cold gradually from my head .. and to make me warmer...
It's the time my sister go to work (to school or something like that), she left the door closed but unlocked. Maybe my sister didn't want to lock me alone inside the room but I thought that it would be unsafe for the thieves might come when I was not able to fight them. However, she still left the door like at the beginning...
Staying alone in the room, I just suddenly thought of all words I hadn't had a chance to say to my beloved family. I regret that I had talked to them already and worried that it's so late then. So I tried my best, use all my remained energy of my life to wrote down each word, step by step. Although I couldn't show my expression in beautiful shape, but I did give them the two words "Thank you" deeply from my heart... Starting from "My dear parents, my dear brother and sisters, and my dear nephews and nieces ..."
The death reminded me a wish to be burned when my life goes over ... My bone powder would be scattered over a blue sea ... and ... a wish that I could be covered by someone I love ... right at the time my soul flies up to the heaven ... I would be much warmer and never feel the coldness any more...
And You.. Would you come to visit me each year after my death?
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